Last Saturday evening, AF came to show her ugly face once more, as she does every month. I was very hopeful for a pregnancy this time, as it I had and hysterosalpingogram (HSG) done on February 3rd and it showed clear tubes. I’m not being ungrateful: I thank God everyday for the miracle of clear tubes, because they were both VERY blocked last August.
As you know, I had a fibroid removed last November and after that part, the surgeon also worked on my tubes to clear them. I waited exactly 3 months to do the HSG and the surgery proved to be a success!
So, this cycle was very important to my husband and I. What’s strange is that I didn’t shed a single tear, as I have done after every failed cycle except for the 2 following my operation. My husband was equally cool about…then again, he’s always cool about everything. We decided to move on to the contingency plan: IUI.
I arrived at the doc Monday around 6:30 pm (thank God for afternoon hours) and he informed me that this failure didn’t necessarily mean that something was wrong. In fact, we could very well end up pregnant next month, and by natural means. He looked up at me as he said that and must have read on my face that I was in no way interested in waiting another cycle that would possibly fail.
After you’ve seen AF come so many times in a row, without fail, your belief in a natural BFP dwindles unless there’s a plan with a new element in it that can give me hope. I don’t want to take the chance that I wait another cycle and blame myself for not taking action and trying to force a natural process to occur when it clearly doesn’t want to. Look at how I’m personifying the natural process! I do believe I’ve lost my mind! I know you all understand my feelings, though.
The doc ordered another sperm analysis for my husband (my idea) and prescribed Clomid (50mg) for me. We’re doing a sonogram on CD 12 (next Wednesday) to check follies (last CD 12 I had a ripe follicle on the left side @ 19.3 mm). If all goes as planned, the IUI will be on March 9th or 10th. I was so psyched as I left the office that night. Immediately afterward, my husband called and told me he’d meet me at his brother’s bar & restaurant right across the street from the hospital. It was his youngest sister’s 22nd birthday and I’d bought her beautiful fashion earrings and a bracelet to match. She was so pleased because it was exactly the style she loved (which I knew, of course). D (my husband) was so pleased to hear the news that we had a private toast (with orange juice) to celebrate the good news.
So far, I have no side effects from the Clomid (just 2 hot flashes that lasted for minutes and seconds, respectively). The sperm analysis came back showing that my husband has stellar sperm! I’ll be bringing the results to the doc late this afternoon. I’ve notified my boss that I won’t be seen at the end of next week, but didn’t give any details. We’ve decided to keep the IUI just between us, D, the doc and I. If it’s a success, we may tell others, but for now it’ll be our little secret (with my Twitter and blog friends of course).
Here’s a pic of 2 of my sisters-in-law (the ones who don’t drive me batty, lol). 😉
Truly Yours,
Kristel Klear
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